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Is my sub nature incapacitating me more and more? Recently, I began to wonder if my sub personality is revealed only in S / M relationships or if I just have such a personality. Earlier I thought that all types of BDSM relationships are limited to so-called sessions. Meetings in dedicated places such as various types of "caves" or clubs, fun and a quick return to normal everyday life. Well, it turns that no. My personality is starting to change faster and most interestingly I have no control over it. My sub nature enters my life more and more, it is manifested by a lack of assertiveness, indecision in making even the simplest decisions. What's more, it seems to me that it becomes so visible that perverts are more and more able to engage in close . This is more and more often manifested by attempted harassment on crowded buses or other public places. As if they knew that in a sense they can afford it and that my reaction to such aggression will not be sufficiently firm. |
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Hi marta, Seems that u're born to be a sub, it's your real nature ! Enjoy it, taking pleasure to dare your kinks, your real life...but don't forget that discretion is a must ! Do you enjoy such aggression, cute sub marta ?
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11/11/2019 1:10 am |
I It is possible that I have always been this way but I didn't fully realize it, or I didn't think about my emotions. Aggression you talk about buses, it's hard to say but my sub site puts me in a rather embarrassing situation.
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U discover yourself step by step...and you like it more and more, Cute sub marta ! Embarrasing or arousing ? Embarrasing and arousing...
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Our true nature is who we are, the bdsm scene just gives us a somewhat safe outlet for it to manifest itself in a controlled eenvironment. We are who we are I'm afraid.
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Very good observation molenda marta. I think if this is the case, you may need more supervision and help from your Master/Dom. For your safety sake of these attempted harrasements. But, yes, clearly as a sub, it is in your blood, in your life and its not left to just weekly or daily sessesions. So proud of you subby. Living it daily is deeper and more fullfilling.
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You seem to have nice big natural udders, cute sub marta... Will these aggression in the bus concerned your breasts ? ps: be proud to be who you are...enjoying your sub side
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11/11/2019 1:57 am |
Embarrasing or arousing ? Embarrasing and arousing... Second one i think, and about the aggression yes they want to feel me.
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11/11/2019 1:59 am |
Very good observation molenda marta. I think if this is the case, you may need more supervision and help from your Master/Dom. For your safety sake of these attempted harrasements. But, yes, clearly as a sub, it is in your blood, in your life and its not left to just weekly or daily sessesions. So proud of you subby. Living it daily is deeper and more fullfilling.
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Embarrasing or arousing ? Embarrasing and arousing... Second one i think, and about the aggression yes they want to feel me. ps: be proud about your body...
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but can we be what we want? In this strange world full of appearances and illusions. Dare your kinks being proud to be the sub u're born to be, cute sub marta !
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Molenda Marta, as a sub I have experienced these same types of feelings and have felt how aggressive men want to physically get close to me, so I can feel their physical presence. In a crowded bus I can feel the back of their hand on my ass as they crowd into me. I've come to realize the excitement that I feel when that happens, Over many experiences I have come to realize the excitement is just reaffirming my submissive nature.
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11/11/2019 3:37 am |
I believe that the real you is emerging. I have been in two sub relationships and never felt more alive and wanted/needed, than i do in real life. Keep going, it is a life worth living and living well.
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You are entering a particularly precarious phase of your life, Marta. You need to surrender the responsibilities, to enjoy the embarrassment and arousal constantly, but you have to surrender yourself in the process. Yet you have nobody to safely surrender to.
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11/11/2019 4:19 am |
At the moment I can't give up my everyday duties, but I have strange emotional states. In total, it's been around for some time, because it's my personal blog, I decided to write about it.
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hello , you will get some insight here . beware of men praising you in hope of getting to use you . be a lady in the streets . someone reacts inappropriate let them know in No Uncertain tones that this is NOT acceptable . in a world full of predatory men and women you need to protect your identity until and when you find a dom man on your own . don't let the everyday asshole be your pretend dom , ok ?
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D/s does have it's elements of exchange... Those on the buses aren't really doing that, it's more take, take, take... Wanting something for nothing... Since they not giving there's no reason you have to give them anything either. You are worth more than nothing, after all. While you may have and display more of a sub attitude, limiting direct physical response, asking for help in general when it occurs shouldn't be forgotten either.
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On the one hand, you have to stay a lady in the city ... that's what makes you worth On the other hand, this type of aggression is both embarassing and exciting ... In fact very arousing for you to be embarassed in public... Would you look for it ? Smiles...
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11/12/2019 7:00 am |
On the one hand, you have to stay a lady in the city ... that's what makes you worth On the other hand, this type of aggression is both embarassing and exciting ... In fact very arousing for you to be embarassed in public... Would you look for it ? Smiles...
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I don't have to look for it, things like that happen all the time. , in the same buses? , on the same courses? , with the same guys? And it arouses you every day as much, cutemarta...!?
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11/13/2019 7:11 am |
it happens to you every day ... , in the same buses? , on the same courses? , with the same guys? And it arouses you every day as much, cutemarta...!?
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Hi cute marta, Seems that the only regularity in this is that it arouses you a lot each time it happens...smiles
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11/16/2019 9:38 pm |
Hi cute marta, Seems that the only regularity in this is that it arouses you a lot each time it happens...smiles
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1 post 11/17/2019 7:37 am |
! also have experienced twice in crowed situations. once touching of my ass cheeks with hand and he pushing his..against me. Another time touching/groping my cheeks and feeling the underside of my bra/breast! was scared but did not move away for a while.
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Tal greets molenda seems first time you entered ALT GOR room you was searching for who you was? and seems you do know now but not sure if is for you as submissive but time and training would tell if you have found that path you would follow regards MASTER ADOMIS4U2
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Yes, but you've so amazing udders that it's quite normal to have perverts near you when u're in buses
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11/21/2019 10:50 am |
Yes, but you've so amazing udders that it's quite normal to have perverts near you when u're in buses
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11/21/2019 10:55 am |
Tal greets molenda seems first time you entered ALT GOR room you was searching for who you was? and seems you do know now but not sure if is for you as submissive but time and training would tell if you have found that path you would follow regards MASTER ADOMIS4U2
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Not really, besides we are talking about something more important than perverts on buses. Somehow it became the main thread of this post.
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11/24/2019 1:11 am |
! also have experienced twice in crowed situations. once touching of my ass cheeks with hand and he pushing his..against me. Another time touching/groping my cheeks and feeling the underside of my bra/breast! was scared but did not move away for a while. At the bus stop I can see if any pervert is staring at me or not. When staring, he usually tries to enter the same entrance as I do to be closer.
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I hope u try something everyday aroused and satisfied or just used for a masters pleasure as everything is a learning and gets u to where u want to be
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It seem to have taken control over you Marta, go with it if it feels right
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11/30/2019 8:09 pm |
yikes marta, that is kinda scarry
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11/30/2019 8:10 pm |
sounds like some balance and reasserting of control need to be achived to be safe
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I hope u are being used and abused everyday marta
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12/3/2019 10:10 am |
I hope u are being used and abused everyday marta
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12/24/2019 3:58 pm |
Self knowledge can only be a good thing.
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It's interesting to see how many guys want to advice you to let it all happen  Personally I would go with the few who tell you to be careful and not tolerate this in a public place from random guys. They just react from their ego without any consideration for you, so why should you have any considerations for them?
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12/30/2019 6:39 am |
I'd go further than anyone else here, I think. I don't believe anyone has a 'true nature'. Of course, in the personality certain things are fixed, but throughout one's life much depends on the environment. We adopt certain roles, defences and coping strategies. So I think that to understand how you're changing and your behaviour is changing, you need to look at the entire picture in which you're just one part.
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12/30/2019 6:42 am |
I'd go further than anyone else here, I think. I don't believe anyone has a 'true nature'. Of course, in the personality certain things are fixed, but throughout one's life much depends on the environment. We adopt certain roles, defences and coping strategies. So I think that to understand how you're changing and your behaviour is changing, you need to look at the entire picture in which you're just one part.
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12/30/2019 9:19 am |
The entire picture would include your friendships, your job, any changes in your family - I can only guess. Obviously the picture includes your BDSM relationship(s). As sexual and emotional relationships develop, both you and your partner(s) will adjust to each other in ways which would have been different in vanilla relationships. This can have a feedback effect, with each rewarding the other sexually and emotionally. Equally, the entire picture extends beyond the present into the past, and even into the future you imagine for yourself - or that those around you imagine for you. I'm saying that we're all constantly making ourselves in response to the pressures and the rewards of our environment. You may well be releasing a pent-up need for submission, but I see it as a need, not a nature. I hope this resonates with you. I know almost nothing about you, so I may just be blundering about crassly.
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