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The mind
The place it all begins and ends.

Oh Canada my home....and native land.
Posted:Feb 15, 2019 5:41 pm
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2019 5:26 pm

YAY has been here and gone again.

He's taken the first load and i shipped the second.

24 Days til its all said and done.

What a ride, what a ride!

So many mixed emotions as I move past all I've known and loved

To be with the one I love and never known this love.

All in all life is good.

I miss Him and happiness is just a click away.
Period sex Yay or Nayy..
Posted:Feb 1, 2019 3:45 pm
Last Updated:Feb 6, 2019 10:47 am

Do you enjoy some period sex?
Hell Yes
Nasty Bastard
Everyone owns red towels
Blow Job week
Back road only week
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The mess between us.
Posted:Jan 29, 2019 9:33 am
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2019 5:38 pm

I've always been a strongly independant woman.

Never relied on anyone else so I couldn't be let down.

The struggle is real some days because I NEED Him.

I NEED the guidance, reassurances that He gives me.

Most recently I NEED Him a lot more than I ever needed anyone.

Become undone not working. No schedule. Honestly its quite depressing and I have laid my burdens upon Him. Feelings. Thoughts.

You would think as someone who can go in to great detail Id be better expressing it to Him instead of going in a deep spiral. A dirty cycle. Alas I spiraled. He survived the emotional tornado I threw at Him.

He of course picked me up and grounded me well.
My issue being the next few weeks its bound to happen again.
The last week it's been a daily grind but getting there.

I feel like a disorganized linen closet and he's trying to find that towel He got long ago and forgot about til recently.

Step by step day by day.

sorting through these survival skills broken relationships and abuse has caused and allowing Him to be the knight in savig grace but keeping that little bit of strength for use to make my life better for me.

You can't by pass the mess that got you to where you are and you must go through it to get where you are going because life lessons bring great strength.
Winter blues
Posted:Jan 29, 2019 9:16 am
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2019 10:27 pm

♡ While I love that I get a little to myself.

Stir crazy is real.

Hobbies are needed for sure.
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A Labour of love.
Posted:Jan 18, 2019 5:34 pm
Last Updated:Jan 19, 2019 5:10 am

Finished my last day at work.

It was a whirlwind

My boss was bittersweet mostly bitter.

But I know I've made the right choice.

Now it's a Day after.

Any regrets on leaving. No.

But the house is spotless.

YAY is in VA

And bored and super horny.

Toys and porn it is.
One step closer
Posted:Jan 17, 2019 3:42 am
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2019 2:45 pm

It is a day. Not today. Not Thee day but a day.

Today.I walk away from all the comfort of a full-time job with senority to be placed at the bottom of seniority as I take my leave.

I've always had a job even while in junior high and high school I wokred fulltime. Hell before mini I worked two fulltime jobs and even since having her I often work fulltime and a part time around her school schedule and days shes with her dad.

But with March in mind today I had to take my leave for everything else to fall into place. I feel some incredible guilt as I know I make a difference at work, I feel some families will be affected.

On the other hand mine will be affected if I don't

In the grand schemeof things. I am taking a leap. A leave for myself. I want to be gone. I need the time to clue up my house..pack things. Sell things. Donate things.

It's all very real. So excited to take a step towards to the sunshine and rainbows I feel as I am.home with Yay.... and bittersweet as I got attached to those at work.

You cannot always have your cake and eat it too but the grass is greener in the other side.

One step closer.
Whys bdsm better than non bdsm?
Posted:Jan 13, 2019 12:32 pm
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2019 3:43 am

A lot of people say they could never do "vanilla sex"

Okay no judgement just observing, wondering why?

Surely sometimes vanilla sex or atleast the ACT of vanilla sex.

The only real difference is


That is the only difference when toys and acts if anything out of the realm of vanilla

Yet it is he biggest difference.

Trust- Respect.

What makes a bdsn relationship "better" than a non bdsm?
Fast going
Posted:Jan 13, 2019 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2019 3:50 am

Embracing the future can be exciting. It is exciting.

Also scary!

I'm not much of a material person letting go most of it is easy!

Almost as mind clearing as it is house clearing.

A few things pictures, momentos of mini must go!

Fumny how we prioritize things. I had everything packed and ready for Yay to go abd now seeing the memories. He has a new first load LOL

I'll admit a litle loneliness for Him has set in. Time seems slow yet its been anything but!
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Amorica amorica!!
Posted:Jan 7, 2019 6:11 pm
Last Updated:Jan 13, 2019 12:33 pm

In the beginning

When we had gotten to know one another as interest grew

We first had to decide if we'd keep talking as it pushed forward being in different countries one would take a leap. Quickly we decided that would be me as it is more fitting and easier for me to transition.

Than we decided two is what it would take for me to be ready.

Than June . June 2019 no biggie. We could do it. I could do it.

Well now it's real. Two week notice is in at work.

He is coming to get some of my stuff.

I selling, and or giving away most of it and now shit is real.

March 1st is just around the corner and I preparing daily.

Really looking forward to whats in store with My Beloved.

I wish You all the happiest moments. I wish you find happiness and maybe the person for You and You them.

I so thankful for the kind words and ears lended when i began making these decisions always have known they are right but its easirr to process when someone weighs in.

Much Love my friends.
Phone sex addiction. Maybe.
Posted:Jan 7, 2019 4:27 pm
Last Updated:Jan 13, 2019 12:15 pm

Well 2000 miles apart.

Something we're sorta use to now.

We spend more time apart than together but its so much sweeter when we are.

It's a feast than famine type deal.

I get so much love, fun, and emotional fulfillment

Than back in Canada and lonely.

I will say Yay is super supportive and only a or text video away.

And with that being said ..

Phone sex or video...has become a for me. so useto the routine the morning and evening that just like clock work my bodys anxiously waiting for the pjone to buzz.

I guess you do what you have to when apart but I've never craved the interaction so much.

Only a few weeks until Yay is here. The snow is awaiitng Him LOL.

Ta ta for now my lovelies....clearing my head as I do...
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