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I now live full time as a woman and have developed my own breasts through HRT, which I did whatever I could elevate my estrogen and progesterone levels and use a testosterone blocker to make my female hormones more effective. My boobs are now a C cup and my bra size is a 38C.

Along with my fem side, comes naturally being submissive. I have for many years been intrigued with being a submissive bottom during BDSM . I have imagined what it would be like to be a naked woman being restrained, whipped, spanked, rapd and tortured during BDSM .

I have learned to tuck to make myself appear as a woman in the groin and like a have a cunt like woman by pushing my testicles back up into my body and pulling my penis back between my legs and gluing it in place with Dermabond surgical adhesive and then stretching the skin from the now empty ball sac over my penis and gluing them in place to kinda resemble 'pussy lips'. I am like this most of the time now so that I can appear as a woman with a cunt.

If anyone is wondering why I just did not just have SRS (sexual reassignment surgery), well I did start that but had to halt it cuz of finances and a couple of other reasons. Changing one's sex physically has more challenges that what most people realize. There is also going to court and being legally declared a female and that involves having birth certific driver's license and other forms of ID changed from male female and also legal name change. The goal is change the point that one never existed as a male and it is much like being reborn but now a different sex.

Awhile back I started constructing my own dungeon in a spare bedroom in my house. Its purpose was for be abused, tortured and debauched in. I had done some research and studying on BDSM and D&s; looking at pics, watching videos and reading whatever material I could find on the subject. What I have learned is that many of the women that submit to BDSM cuz they desire it. Some are very attractive women that most people would not think would be into submitting to BDSM and possibly being in a D&s relationship with someone or others. They look like successful business women and some are like daily housewives.

So far I have participated in some BDSM activities as a nude woman. I have been debauched by men and women both.

The pics are not of me but of some of the acts I have participated in. I am like the naked or subdued women in the pics.

I am still a novice but so far I have been whipped while my arms were raised above my head and raised up by a hoist and suspended while being whipped. My tits have been tortured and slapped and I have been rapd anally and orally while restrained and helpless. Sometimes I am gagged while my abuser and debaucher is not in the mood to hear the bitch (me) scream or moan with pain.

The endorphins and dopamine must be working well in my brain's pleasure centers cuz I am finding pleasure in this activity.