Middle aged guy. Single. Never been married. No . Workaholic. Live with my cat Leo. I’m a home body. Seldom date. Vanilla sex is like working a second job without pay. I’ve been visited by perverse fantasies since High School. And I’ve always felt submissive sexually. Experienced my first erection watching CatWoman tie up BatMan. As a youth I’d lust at attractive older Women. Imagining them making me do naughty things. Suck their breasts. Kiss their feet. Lick their ass. As a I developed a kink for pantyhose. I’d wear them to bed at night. Often rubbing one off before falling asleep. My first wet dream was about my being with naked beautiful Women. All of whom possessed big beautiful cocks. I remember waking up all sticky. In my twenties I discovered that I had no interest in dating Vanilla. My sexual thoughts revolved around assertive Women and cute boys. At 24 years old I landed a good job in LA. Modeling Fashion. The World was my oyster. But because of my strict upbringing I was reluctant to pursue what attracted me the most. Namely cute boys. Sexually frustrated I became a chronic wanker. Dreaming instead of doing all the things that I wanted to do. I simply could not act out my sexual desires. My first gay experience happened with a boy at the Downtown YMCA. I saw him standing in the shower. And I realized that I was becoming turned on. I quickly rinsed off and left the shower area hoping that he hadn’t noticed. A few minutes later he approached me by my locker. He was kind and understanding. And slowly removed his towel. He was hard for me. But I couldn’t suck him in the locker room. So I gave him my cell. And he called me the following Sunday. I invited him over. And before the tea was brewed I was on my knees on the kitchen floor with his big dick in my mouth. And I sucked him like a Call Gurl. He stopped by many times after that. Very discreetly of course. In fact we’re still “ friends”. But, I always wanted more than dick. I’ve always had thoughts of being dominated. More specifically controlled. I’ve fantasized about being drugged or hypnotized. Always by Confident Women ( and later boys posing as Women ). And these “ Women” coerce me to do all the things that I dream of doing. A Sissy Maid for example. In pantyhose and heels. Locked and plugged. Somebodies Boi Toy. Smooth and tanned. Wanting to serve. Or a Women’s Bitch. My body totally smooth. Made to wear panties to work. She calls me on my cell and I have to find the nearest bathroom and masturbate for her live. Or a person, man or woman who has the ability to take my manhood. And I’ve met only two who manage to hold up on this website. Mistress Tinaa and missjess1. Both are very good at what they do. And I’ve been captivated by both. They’re rare on this site because they take the time to cultivate ( in my case mesmerize) people they choose to engage with. And they’re very good at what they do. I’ve gone from a man who jacked off two and three times a day to a boy who is locked. As I write this, 2:33 am Friday morning I’m locked in a chastity devise. In a million years I would have never thought that possible. For twenty years my dick has been the only source of my entertainment. Now I sit here lusting helplessly. If somebody can pull that on me they certainly deserve my respect. And I have a great deal of respect and admiration for both. So, that’s where I’m at today. For now anyway. A 6 ft. -210 lb. man locked up for Christmas. Often I don’t feel like a man at all. I feel like a Smooth Slut. Often locked and stuffed. Aching to be FUCKED. More later.... I’ve got to get some sleep.[SIZE 2][/SIZE][B][/B]
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My Ideal Person:
A “WOMAN” who likes taking control. More important one who is capable of taking control. Who is willing to spend the time to achieving as much. I’m very submissive sexually. And found that I’m very susceptible to gentle persuasion. I’ve seen myself in so many perverted scenarios. But Primarily as a femmed out bitch eager to please. Humiliation is a big part of what excites me. Verbal humiliation in particular. If the right person speaks to me in the right way I become very turned on in short order. And find that I’m helpless to their charms. It may sound crazy but it’s happened to me on this website more than once. I lose control, put aside my inhibitions, and am left a sticky mess.
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