Older woman who enjoys getting to know others. I look for friends first, then we work from there. I think I have a mildly twisted side... others say it's really twisted and majorly bent, I'll let you judge. I like getting to know people for sharing ideas... but there could be more there to share. Friends can turn into lovers... sadly loves turning into friends doesn't always work out well.
I identify as lesbian, I enjoy talking and getting to know T-girls and men as well. I went out with a tall T-girl for a while, it was nice she didn't play the female head games. I am told I'm fair minded and level headed, when in scene this is a must.
Back in the day, I was exploring and found the Leather Community. Here I am many years later, finding myself exploring again. In being honest I'm not sure who I am anymore. Am I Straight? No that label doesn't fit. Am I still Lesbian? I'm not sure anymore, but it feels kinda right. I have enjoyed being with women all my life. Am I Bi? I don't know. It kinda feels like it may fit, but men are all new to me.
I remember going to woman's only play parties, after a night of heavy play, I felt alive and vibrant. I have gone to mixed play parties, after a night of heavy play, I felt alive and vibrant. I no longer feel alive or vibrant inside like I use to. I have not played in many years, so there is no balance in my life right now. In short there is no Yin and Yang in my life. I feel so blah... I have stopped wearing make up, because I feel nothing in side.
My domestic partner of 20 years, after being hurt on the job 10 years ago, has been softly pushing me to explore and to fill my needs. Yes I have been dragging my feet because I didn't feel right doing so. She and I had a long talk, the just of the talk was she trusts me and knows I will always come back to our bed in the end.
Am I a dominant or submissive? The answer is I enjoy both, after all they are but two sides of the same coin. One needs to experience one to understand the other. What am I looking for? Friends, for sure. Someone to offer a guiding hand is always welcome. Some play time would be a very welcomed change of life.
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My Ideal Person:
Ideal person? That's a tough one. I'm a romantic at heart. Someone that likes walks on the beach, maybe with my leash on their collar. Someone that is romantic and enjoys down time together. Hard telling what position they may be in at the time. Tied up, all ports filled, with a vibrator going somewhere shouldn't be ruled out. Maybe just snuggled up enjoying a movie together.
They need to be honest and open with themselves and myself so they can ask for what they need. They need a joy for life and see the good in the world.
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